UNDER THE RUG

i was born

2008-07-03T00:40:46Z

under both Sun and Moon an Aquarius:

"your instinctive reaction to lovers is to let them admire you, but to make them keep their distance."
"you will...want to maintain a great element of freedom, even while enjoying the most passionate of affairs."

"Nearly all Aquarians love mirrors; they have an unfortunate reputation for being a little vain."

i love you, but i love me more?

let's call a spade a spade

2008-04-28T19:12:27Z

and by that i mean rather than metaphorically calling someone out, using their actual name is far less cowardly and childish.

i guess this would be my way of continuing that trend though. let's see if the player can recognize their own game!

:)

2008-04-19T22:46:42Z

bike riding yesterday and the day before for an hour each! i'm already seeing some personal improvements!

i just finished a seminar, and I am officially beginning my new job as a tutor for children with autism.
today we did a little meet and greet kind of thing with families where they would watch us interact with the kids and do activities and exercises with them, and i got a lot of contacts! I should be starting within the next week.

so now i tutor and teach chess. this will be a very very nice summer :)

now i am going to take a 3 hour nap.

just do it?

2008-04-14T03:52:39Z

mayyybe if i think someone else is keeping track on my personal appearance, i will continue to work on it.

so today i went bike riding on some trails, and i did some laps in an ice freezing pool (that cold temperature is good for my metabolism too!).
let's see how i do the next few days, don't want to embarass myself on livejournal or anything outlandish like that.

you know who frank warren is...

2008-04-07T02:23:56Z

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=23190295060

the other day stefan said that he wasn't sure if there was estimation without procrastination. i feel like that is a good statement. i am about to take a shower and then embark in the land of forced words. essays are easy, but i hate when i have a subject that is so tired and bored:

write a personal essay telling of a time when you had to make a moral decision.

are you serious? how can i be creative when the subject is not? by making something up, and i am going to do that. cool.
a lot of people lately through thoughts, looks, and through word of mouth are making my romantic endeavours a lot more active and detailed than they actually are. but i am used to this.

tuesday i take on a school all by myself for chess. this class is very small and my two favorites in there are these sisters who i believe are pakistani and they pronounce their w's as v's. and they are so happy for each other when the other makes a good move. i like that.

finally the elephant on the page: i still haven't found another to job to replace/in addition to my current one(s) and i don't know how i will make ends meet this month. i can't ask to borrow from my mom because i still owe her from last month...i wish restarants would stop giving me interviews if they aren't hiring. so far i've been on three.

gina_etc @ 2008-02-29T01:33:00

2008-02-29T09:38:09Z

the world is so much bigger than me

ho hum

2008-01-22T19:00:55Z

Today I robotically as well as unconsciously turned off my cell phone alarm upon ringing. Then I woke up twenty minutes later than i would have preferred from a dream of me hiding in a closet from some alien machine thing with a lens that could see me (kind of like War of the Worlds) and then further running away from a man in armor on a horse with one of those jousting swords.

I get ready, go downstairs, get in my car, and then get back out of it after seeing this on my windshield:

by double park they must mean that i'm in the red, which i am. but this neighborhood has NO parking, and my spot on the driveway is currently occupied with tools and a mound of earth. And, i'm almost positive that my dad is on the board of directors, i wonder if whoever wrote this knows it was my car? not to sound like a jewish-american-princess or anything.

anyway their intention was clear thanks to the underlining, caps, and exclamation points.
and they tried to be sneaky, but that is clearly the incorrect date!

oh another thing:
an entry ago or two, i was SO excited. that's because it was before i read the 2008 Coachella lineup. Really? Jack Johnson really? to headline?? um also, it's just not good. i mean i'd love to see rilo again and M.I.A. was a blast but the point is, i've seen most of the bands on that lineup! and i could pay less to drive to see the others when they play somewhere else. where's Radiohead?? Where's Devendra?? It was supposed to be the White Stripes, not the Raconteurs. I heard rumors of David Bowie! and they apparently were just rumors.

unless they add a bunch more to that little blue poster, i say we plan a trip to mexico or somewhere else exciting. i was really disappointed..

now i will wrap up these last give or take 4 hours of costume jewelry sales, and then meet up with the youngest wingerter, also known as desie, which will be a relief after these three letdowns.

!!!!!!

2007-12-13T23:08:01Z

i have really good taste in candles, BECAUSE PEOPLE (lillie shines, my mother, people at work) STEAL MY CANDLES ALL THE TIME. I LIKE THEM YOU JERKS AND I PAID A LOT OF MONEY STOP TAKING THEM !!!!!

:)

gina_etc @ 2007-12-05T01:01:00

2007-12-05T09:02:33Z

today is the first time i've felt like "the youngest" in a long time.

yes, Yes, YESS!!

2007-11-30T03:12:46Z

Tentative New Year's Resolutions:

1. MAKE TIME as well as an effort to use my gym membership that won't expire until 2009 and lose XX pounds.
2. Grow my hair back out, although short hair was fun.
3. NEVER let my car get back to the state it was in from July '07 to November '07 EVER AGAIN.
4. Continue to act on my whim. Being impulsive thus far has only brought me fabulous results!
5. Actually initiate my next big change: moving out, but not only out,.. away...

and with that i'd just like to say, i don't hate vegas, i'm sure i wouldn't have done half the things i've done living else where, and met the people i have and all that. i enjoy the meadows, but i haven't wanted to live here for a while ( a looong while, trust me, we're talking pre pre adolescent as in age 3.) anyway, i thank you las vegas, and i can't wait for the new year's i will celebrate in you this year, and i'm not breaking us off. In fact, i think that if things go the way i plan, i will visit you often from the east coast and bring with me nothing but happiness and excitement. see you four times a year i'd say!

THEN AGAIN like i said, these are tentative resolutions, so we'll see what happens. Last year i accomplished two out of three resolutions!!! right now i have five and if things continue in the pattern they are in, i won't accomplish number 1 again..but i'm looking to alter the trends!!! 2006 was the most important year of my life so far, and this year started off with a bang (bang? big bang?? theory???)))) 'tis true, it was party time all the time this year, i loved it. anyways, COOL.

P.S.

2007-11-21T20:25:21Z

i have a new number, i wasn't disconnected from the world for more than 20 minutes :)

people of the universe!

2007-11-14T20:29:45Z

with a room! or interests in rooms! MY LIFE IS VERY CHANGING-WITH-THE-WIND lately. one minute family and love interests like me, the next, they're not so sure.

the point is, i don't want to be a gypsy again, i want a home. so if you have a room for rent, i'm a reliable girl. OR if you want to start fresh just in time for the holidays, i'm all about actions, i'm sick of talk, let's move out! i need a place to live ok??

seriously, let me know, i'm good for the money, and most importantly for the company. ;)

sit-sot-saturday

2007-11-10T23:08:22Z

Saturday (starting at 12 pm midnight Friday, you know the real official Saturday) is very not as dull as some of us had made it out to be according to Friday. It's just 3 hours past half the day being over and much has happened..

FIRST-- i finally went and saw my wonderful beautiful amazing apartment it's soo coool, it's from 1974 and i like it a lot. My dad has a lot of work to do but it will look great by Christmas. We're redoing my room first, i'm going to pick out carpet this week. I'm feeling cream, but i don't know, i'm kind of too messy for such a clean color. We'll see, i can pick anything. Also, the light in my bathroom is red! it's like a party everytime i piss.

So here's a little interesting history about my place.. the lady who lived there had a lot of personality and 17 cats. unfortunately she died when she had a seizure. She was an epileptic. The family was very shocked, and when my dad went to take up the offer, he and the dad connected because the man bought the place for her and my dad wanted to get it for me and you get the picture. it's sad because some of her things are still there. everyone kind of feels her presence when they go in. not a bad or good feeling, just a feeling. so since she loved cats and she died very young and we owe it to her, my dad is going to get some sort of lion head drawn by this guy and frame it as a tribute to her. i am grateful to be in the new abode, i really do like it!

so that was this afternoon. this morning i woke up with a head full of a hundred things annnnnnnnnd that's as far as i'll go on that. Dad noticed, i love that man.

ook well my last fortune cookie said to look forward to a new adventure, and so far this night/day/soon to be night again has been pretty adventurous.

i realize i live in a desert, but there really is no water

2007-11-06T00:33:48Z

YESTERDAY was eventful..i got locked out of my house, and also, i had to jump over my backwall to go to a neighbor's to use a phone to call a locksmith. so, i'm not a cat, and this is a very tall wall and i scraped my wrists and knees, and now it looks more like i'm a suicidal than a forgetful idiot. my arms are killing me, do you know how hard it is to type this right now???
so $155.50 is happily with the locksmith woowee. then i ate some blueberry cake that my dad left a note on for me. so sweet. he also bought tickets for us to go to a concert to awww. i'm not going to lie im not a huge fan of this band, but, i'm a fan of my dad, so now i am excited to go.

IT'S PARAMORE OK?? gee.

also, yesterday was rollout and it was soooooooo loooooooong and i got home at 4 am, fell asleep at 5, woke up at 8 when someone on shrooms called me FOR NO REASON ya know, and i of course didn't answer i was sleeping, then i woke up at 9. no sleep till brooklyn or at all in my bed.

now i'm at work and i was supposed to see bill clinton, but one of my friends doesn't prioritize, but neither does her job so, there is balance in the universe. im trying to figure out politics i need to brush up..

i have to pee and wash my hands and eat this kiwi since there is no water and thats the closest thing, and then leave work, and WAIT FOR MY FELLOW EMPLOYEES TO CALL ME BACK. about schedules, you know.

Big freaky deaky Mustaches

2007-10-21T01:29:31Z

all around last night!

tomorrow i move to my daddio's and i am so ready and excited. p.s. WE GOT THE APARTMENT WOOOO!!!
hopefully the next time i post a blog about moving, it will be to New York, but i'll get to that when it comes.
i clipped off my nails so it's easier to type now. being fashionable is on pause right now, i'm busy. though, forgive me for admitting i still pull that ish off.

my man david bowie one time sang, "ch-ch-ch-ch-changes!" and this is why i like him besides the fact that he is fabulous and make up'd and tyler mckusick is his alter ego..

anyways, david bowie knew what he meant because certain individuals in my life (whether i want them in it or not, hah!) are going through some. SELF-IDENTITY ISSUES ANYONE???

little A i love you too.

ok, enough boring.

below

2007-10-12T06:34:59Z

I am sorry for myself that I am associated with you. And I am sorry those chose to associate that way. Good bye!

finally a day off

2007-09-11T17:12:39Z

1. shower
2. free car wash
3. registrar's office
4. school
5. errands

6. a day off?

if my head exploded right now...

2007-09-07T06:56:17Z

it'd probably be an interesting sight, you'd mostly see scenes from the book i'm reading.
i stayed at work 15 minutes later than i needed to because i was so into it.

also, i just have a lot on my mind, another 18 year old child got kicked out today, and she wants to live with me.
i wish i had a place for us to live in.
BUT! good news, that's coming soon :)
i'm supposed to find out tomorrow some info on that..

tomorrow's friday in six minutes!
and do i NEED the weekend